a tickle

picture me, walking along
a shore's edge
gazing glazed eyes faced away from a maze
sweet and playing
softly spaces
bewilderment wandered from

i come
out of some girl's little cave
scared, and saved
(a little bit)
nothing to admit

the eye i spy
a mile of tried lies
and i let it all in now
i'm good, i'm fine
shudder shaking what is this? i don't know
let's see
i said

bitten lip
flutter by
moment so whole in our high
depth and width and grace and laughter
so much
laughter
i am found in what i'm after

i am over it,
i said

constant scatter of thought
really? truly, completely, fully
wholly? was i wrong,
this one and only
yes or no, i don't know
but let the record show
i tried..
and now i leave dignified
shadow of a doubt tickling my throat
really truly completely fully wholly ???

but you came too slowly
you came too slowly

your *sentences* were too long
and hard to understand
but it was i who locked myself up
you never confined me
remember? remind me

i am bliss at this time and that time and
i'm fine
i'm good
i'm still accepted as misunderstood,
here
where all is not clear
and i am willing to place this bet, now.
'cause you can't win
if you don't bet

have i convinced you yet
or me

damn it
i see