I was walking
for quite some time
before I noticed
you don't matter anymore.
I don't walk
heavy or slow with you
on my back
I don't walk fast
to get away from your lack
now I walk 'cause it's a sunny day
I don't mesmerize the backs of my eyes with
half-driven visions of what I could
not quite see
wishful nevers in hopeless dreams
Now,
I remember I am blessed.
I see mountains hugging my perception half-dressed
I feel newborn spring air enter my cells
I breathe out hell
breathe in something
I don't recognize
the taste of
maybe, one day, love
you don't matter anymore
I walk with the wings of a beautiful angel
floating behind my each and every step
I walk with my hands barely kept
at my sides
as every dancing rhythm tries
to make my body sway from side to side
at every stoplight
I must fight
the urge of my undulating hips trying to keep time with the sun
and the bongos
which are one
at this moment
in which you do not matter
anymore
everything so brilliantly formed around me
the amazing nature of everything I can actually see
I thought you left me empty
but I walk and it fills me
with everything that was already there
I couldn't feel, I didn't care
but
you don't
matter
anymore
