what i got

i don't want to anymore.

i don't want to watch life go by in a series of blurred out messy entanglements.

i don't want to watch people do things with little to no cognizance of how it affects others.

i don't want to watch myself do things with little to no cognizance of how it affects others.

i don't want to WATCH, at all.

i don't want the pit of my stomach to turn at the realization of things unrealized.

i don't want to see my pieces strewn around me anymore.

i don't want to wait or wish or want or hope for.

i want to pick them up,
and put them together

the pieces
of
wait wish want hope

make
a mosaic
of what
i
got

a lot
a lot.

soon

(now)