believe in

~hear the song here~

this is a story..

you said,
hold on to me, 'cause i might make you see,
and you got nothin' much else to do
and i don't understand
why you fit in my hand, but
you do
i don't wanna wait for it
but i wanna stay for it
i don't know what i want

too much for me, i don't know..
too much for me now to go..

~i need some sleep
but i just can't keep
my eyes closed~

i don't know what to do, but i'm sober and
i love you more than i should
it stands to reason i should be leavin'/believe in,
i don't even know if i could..
something here is so wrong
something here don't belong
you somehow don't know what that is

i will wait here until you know..
or i will, i will let you go..

~i need some sleep
but i just can't keep
my eyes closed~

i don't like this runaround i guess..
i wanna see you get out of this mess..

~i need some, what do i need
i need some sleep..~

no understanding, the world so demanding
and it keeps on handing me things
i don't know what to take, don't know what to break
oh babe i prayed for this ache, have i made a mistake, oh i
need some.. what do i need..
i need some.. what do i need..

..sleep..

i never could

the minute i stepped in it
i needed new shoes

began to lose old blues
to the tune of a very different sad,
sad song
played softly, at first,
no mind made worse by the turn of
subtly delicious entanglements
distractions from actions untamed
it was frivolous. but sane

quiet reasoning leapt
out anxiously from thoughts
of last night's
felony
and i said,
shhh.
there, there..
quietly
so people don't stare

nervously i
expected everything
remember me? stupid, free,
gazing glaze-eyed over the maze
taking space up with some 'meaningless' phase
i can quit whenever
i
want.
i can
i swear
i will
if i really, really wanted to..i would.
what am i talking about here?..
wow.