i don't try

i want
to redefine
a few things.
my mind
aligned
i find
(still)
lines entwined.

the world is different now
i promise.

these words still
flutter by
these eyes still
find you.
sighing
smiling
i don't try.
it just comes..

weight

this is a reality
conjured up
this truth is
in my cup
made
obliterated
satiated
something weighted
waited
waited

did what i said
make you not want to keep reading
why are you here then

satisfaction?

curiosity.
well
i'm no cat
but

if i look,
i'll think.
and if i think
i'll wonder
which means
i then wander..
and i
always
get
lost
there
sigh

love me or hate me

turned my head,
looked around. something's found..
who was lost
at a cost of a fraction of your heart's desire,
you can let your fire
dwindle to the bare orange of a spark-once-flamed
(tamed)
terrified of being named
love me or hate me,
this is a game.
and it's still the bloody same..
repeat repeat repeat
i thought unreal met defeat
but it simply
fashioned a disguise
i suppose
i look at my hands, wiggle my toes,
yeah.. it's still me
in a rhythm within a given
one more time i'll tell you
one
more
time